I lost my number, can I have yours?

     

So I turned 40 last month, yep that happened. Not sure how I feel about it. My 39th year was a shit show, but it was 2020 so it would be concerning if it wasn't. I was sick most of the year, went to a lot of doctors, got a lot of new medications. Is this what my life is now, collecting pills like my son collects funko pops? I spent last night in the hospital, calm down I am going to live, just got a new pill. A night at the hospital used to be a whole ordeal, gotta find someone to watch the kids, get them to school, yada yada. Well now that they are full grown humans this should be easier right. Feed yourself and don't burn the house down. Nope, instead world war III, why, because my son decided to tell his sister that she was to fat to get a boy friend and would probably be alone forever. Well now you don't tell a teenage girl any of that, and this is coming from my 20 year old who is missing a tooth right now because he did a belly flop at the water park off a 3 foot slide some years back. So toothless is telling hormones about dating, what could go wrong? They worked it out, I have not heard from my son since though come to think of it. I may need to check on him.

     So now I am on facetime call from the hospital with my beautiful daughter while she talks about how boys don't like her, remind me to thank my son. I am not sure why she chose today to care what her brother says but here we are. There are so many reasons for her not to care what he says, from a sister stand point. For starters my son has never dated a sane girl, he actually had to lock himself in the bathroom to get away from the last one, but all the sudden he is the yoda of dating. 

     Dating in general is just a hard topic, I didn't do much of it, I don't have much advice for her. I got married young, got divorced, got married again, the first one was practice. I met my husband in a chat room on yahoo, remember those? He posted something that pissed me off so I messaged him, got pregnant by him and then married him. That was over 18 years ago. Not to mention things have changed so much, these humans of mine think it is weird to call and talk to someone you like, instead they throw around the oop hoping to make a basket or something. Not sure what happens if they make a basket because my kids never get that far. My son well he is the "nice guy" who complains that girls don't like nice guys and my daughter likes the chase but no the catch. My husband has no advice for them either, the girl he lost his virginity to is now a furry who blogged about how bad that particular incident was and now his current wife is blogging about her blogging about it. Poor guy. 

     I miss the days when I could tell my daughter that she didn't need a prince charming she was strong, smart and capable of doing it on her own and that was good enough. The days where she thought you went to Wal-Mart to get pregnant. The days where she thought I had my shit together. The one thing I had to offer her was cheesy pick up lines, she has ran with it, this could be why she is still single, huh, nope not my fault. But seriously, she is 17 and has this urgency like she is running out of time to find the one. Slow down time, I love our evolving relationship and the way our conversations are starting to mimic that of a friend who is her mother instead of just her mother. I may not always have the answers but I will get used to that. 

Be radical. Be true. Be you.